Images CHARIS -GRACE

Hey! Its osato and today I’m posting a sort of short story....the title is Charis which in English means Grace...

Drowning...that’s the only word I can use to express how I felt...everything just seemed to go wrong, didn't even know if I was breathing right..

I tried everything, but still I felt empty. I couldn't take it any more, I mean, why should I have to live like this?

All around me were happy people and on the outside I looked happy too, but on the inside? Gosh...

On the inside it felt like moths were eating my heart and my soul like a piece of cloth, on the inside...I was empty.

So there I was, standing on the edge of the bridge. I had written my mother a letter explaining everything.

Nothing could change my mind, nothing!

I brace myself and I begin to count, I would end my life on the count of 3.

1.........

2.......

On the second count, a voice yells STOP! I look around but no one’s there. I’m about to let myself fall when I hear the voice again saying

“Don’t you know I love you?” those words pierced my heart because for as long as i have lived, no one has ever said those words to me.

I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. “I died for you because I love you” the voice said, and that’s when I knew who it was, it was Jesus.

I remember serving him so diligently but stopping after a while. “Why did you stop loving me?” He asked “because You stopped talking to me,

I cried to You, but all I heard was silence...You left me Lord, You left me” I said weeping. “Have you forgotten so soon? I said i will never leave you nor forsake you...

Am I a man that I should lie?” He said to me. “But Lord, I couldn’t hear anything!” I said trembling because of His awesome presence. “You, my dear, stopped listening,

You stopped reading the Word, you drifted away from me, I tried to pull you gently back to me but you wouldn’t come! You were so occupied with the things

Of this world, you neglected me, you threw our relationship away and went in search of money, fame and all sorts...know ye not that you cannot serve two masters?

I’ve been there all along waiting for you to come back, all you have to do is come back to me before it’s too late because I never stopped loving you, I just couldn’t stand living in your heart anymore because of how filthy it had become” He said with something that resembled pain in His eyes.

Like a sickly malnourished child, I was weak. He stared at me and I at Him and all I could see was love, so much love it was overpowering.

A love even greater than the love a mother has in her eyes when she looks at her new-born for the first time. Then He says “I can’t force you to love me and I can’t force you to come back to me but instead I lay before you life and death; choose life that you might live”

In response, I say “But Lord, I did choose life, but I was struggling” He smiles and says “let me introduce you to someone, her name is Charis, she will help you pull through, I put her in there to help my children grow in me and help them do right because I knew they wouldn’t be able to do it on their own.” At that moment, I felt the weight that was pressing me to the ground lift and on impulse, I run towards Him and I wrap my arms around Him. “I’m sorry, Lord, I’m sorry I neglected You” He hugged me back and I felt a tremendous wave of peace in my heart.

5yrs later, my life is amazing... my relationship with God is great and the only word I can use to express how I feel is soaring.

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I wrote it a few days ago and just felt like I should share....constructive criticism is welcome and you’re free to leave a comment.